Bright Future / Forging Full Steam Ahead !

It's funny how I am approaching this whole idea of blogging. People have told me that I should be doing this now for years and I'm thrilled more than I can express that I am finally embarked on this path. I've circled around and around it like a bird circling above it's prey. I have not lunged or dived into anything quite yet. I've set / am setting my stage so to speak and I have every intention of plunging into - deep down into whatever this self-exploration is of mine. I want to know myself and my world better , especially how we can relate to each other and grow from this contact. It's exciting and I fear it , too. I'm scared, have been and yet I know it's my only course and I can't delay much longer. I need to show some pith and some more flesh below the skin - not just more flesh. I need to be raw and brutal in my remarks. I cannot afford to spare anyone or anything. I have to submerge my whole being in whatever I write about, writing almost as it is actually - physically / emotionally / in-my-dreams-fantasies , second-by-split-second happening to me. AUTHENTICITY/ typicity, honesty, actuality and specific regionality. Unfiltered, un-fined, undefined, unedited, unrehearsed, raw, gut animal emotion and intensity that spans the highest highs and the lowest lows and the most boring, put-one-to-sleep middles possible. That's my mission - all focused both inward and outward at the same moment. How do I fit, how do I react, what do I react to ?!? I'm circling and at any minute I'll be swooping, scooping, pooping, peeing, pissing on all the infidel/false/fakes of this wonderful world that we all are lucky enough just to be witness more or less or not at all to... TONY